Being a Woman sucks.

I've been having an emotional breakdown for like a week. All I do is cry and I don't even know why. The littlest things set me off and I'm frustrated all the time. I don't mean to be the way I am lately and I try to control myself but I'm just angry. I don't know how to fix it.

Nothing to talk about

I really just don't know what to talk about. I mean I put my tree up last night but other than that there's nothing to talk about. Oh and I look super ugly today cause I woke up late and I'm tired. I look like someone punched me. GREAT!

Graduating

I'm so excited to be done with high school. I have about three and a half weeks left until I graduate. I'm kind of scared though because I'm gonna be on my own completely. The closer it gets the more excited and nervous I get. Part of me isn't ready to grow up. I feel like that means something. Like maybe I'm not ready? Hmm

Caleb

So I've got some exciting news! I'm going to sdopt my foster brother. I realize that with that comes a lot of resposobility and hard work but it's worth it. Some people think I'm stupid for doing it because I'm only 18 but I love him too much to let another family take him from me. He's 5 months old with blond hair and big bright blue eyes. I swear the only thing he does is smile. This summer I will be getting an apartment (because my parents are moving out of state) and I will work instead of going to college right away. I will still go to college eventually but it will have to wait until Caleb is a little older. I'm kind of nervouse to be a mom but at the same time I know I can do it. Not only do I love him more than anyone or anything else, but I've also been helping my mom raise kids since I was 7. This probably isn't the smartest decision I've ever made, but if I don't keep him I'll regret it for the rest of my life.

Shananagans

Being in high school is supposed to be about growing up and getting prepared for the real world. Yet, for some reason, people keep starting drama with me. Normally I would be the bigger person and just ignore them but in this case I can't do that. See this specific little girl is dragging my friends into it and I won't have that. She's a sophmore and should be mature enough to know there are boudries. You can't just send dirty text messages to other girls boyfriends and then run your mouth about them. That doesn't bother me so much because it wasn't my boyfriend. What bothers me is that she tried to blaime her mistake on me and then run her mouth about me. I'm trying my best to just ignore her immaturity but part of me really just wants to go off on her.

Something to talk about

I didn't know what to blog about so my boyfriend suggested I blog about us. So here it goes. I've known him practically my whole life but I never really noticed him before 2 months ago. (Don't tell him I said that) We've been together for 2 weeks and I have a good feeling about our relationship. He's not like other guys. He's a gentleman MOST of the time. I think what I like the most about him though is that I can be myself around him and I don't feel judged or weird. On the other hand it's only the begining. Things may change....but I hope not. (:

On the Bright Side

My trip to Alabama wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I mean it deffinantly sucked but I survived it. I think the whole being in the middle of no where and not being bothered by other people was really good. I almost felt trapped though because I knew I coundn't leave. Maybe that doesn't make any sense but I like being in control of my surroundings. If the trip had been a little shorter I totally would have loved it. On the bright side I got to see my Great Aunt who hasn't been doing to well and I didn't have to do my makeup for about 7 days. I guess i kind of enjoyed the break!