Being a Woman sucks.

I've been having an emotional breakdown for like a week. All I do is cry and I don't even know why. The littlest things set me off and I'm frustrated all the time. I don't mean to be the way I am lately and I try to control myself but I'm just angry. I don't know how to fix it.

Nothing to talk about

I really just don't know what to talk about. I mean I put my tree up last night but other than that there's nothing to talk about. Oh and I look super ugly today cause I woke up late and I'm tired. I look like someone punched me. GREAT!

Graduating

I'm so excited to be done with high school. I have about three and a half weeks left until I graduate. I'm kind of scared though because I'm gonna be on my own completely. The closer it gets the more excited and nervous I get. Part of me isn't ready to grow up. I feel like that means something. Like maybe I'm not ready? Hmm

Caleb

So I've got some exciting news! I'm going to sdopt my foster brother. I realize that with that comes a lot of resposobility and hard work but it's worth it. Some people think I'm stupid for doing it because I'm only 18 but I love him too much to let another family take him from me. He's 5 months old with blond hair and big bright blue eyes. I swear the only thing he does is smile. This summer I will be getting an apartment (because my parents are moving out of state) and I will work instead of going to college right away. I will still go to college eventually but it will have to wait until Caleb is a little older. I'm kind of nervouse to be a mom but at the same time I know I can do it. Not only do I love him more than anyone or anything else, but I've also been helping my mom raise kids since I was 7. This probably isn't the smartest decision I've ever made, but if I don't keep him I'll regret it for the rest of my life.